The biggest thing I can say is that you need to at least wait until its the right time and everything is lining up. 22 more days isnt long, and hey, you can even get in some practice for the big event. I know you feel this will change everything and turn everything around, but you also have to respect your fiance's thoughts in this as well. Forcing something on him thta he feels will be better if waited just a little longer could potentially put strain on your relationship. Keep your head up. This will happen for you. Maybe not right now, but it will.