Had a really bad night last night onli one and half hrs sleep.

Text him at 5am then 5.20am then 6.00 got up and ready to go down there.................

I text him to tell him I was coming and he got really angry and said I don't need your help and that I am stressing him out.....I know he had big plans today and it involved other women and his new mates.

I cried but I didn't go down...he said he will ring me tonight.

I'm just re-reading this and God I'm an idoit.how desprate do I sound.

Anyway got to chat with my sis...god bless her she just had surgery on her tooth and could hardly talked. I told her of the brake up and she said good...when has he treated you right.

I told her I was lonely she gave me a good kick in the *** as all good "older" sister can do.......I just need to hear her said it and reassure me........He has not treated my right for a long time...............i really think my pride and ego is screaming out in pain.....How vain is that.

I have decided to sell my house and invest my money and go on a good holiday.

Funny thing today was my stars.....ask my what I was going to do with my big dilemma....the answer is hidden within the question....a solution is staring you in the face

All thoughts and comments most welcome.

Cheers
SpringStar