pkv89, I am sorry that things are so bad for you at the moment. Is this your first time to be depressed? Ruftin offered good advice. Things will improve. I think ayurvedic medicine has good treatments for depression, too.

Everyday things like trying to get enough sleep, eating regular meals, getting sunlight and fresh air, and telling your problems to someone you trust can help, too. If there's no one in your life that you want to share such personal things with, the people on this forum are good listeners.

Thank you for sharing your life issue with us.