a movie came on television
one that my father always watched
why does this world want to rub salt into the wounds
i know i will never forget what happened
but why am i not able to just get through each day
i just want to make it the day through
without completely losing the plot
losing control and falling down
cos sometimes i just cant get back up
and i hate him
i hate him for everything he did
for everything hes made of me
i wonder if he looks at me know
is he proud

i hate triggers
innocent things turned evil