Right after my session, I process what we talked about and "things" I think I pick up in her mannerisms, such as tone of voice, body language, ...etc.
While I'm processing, I write down some of my thoughts about all of it and I go through the list at the next session. It actually helps us with the flow of my therapy topics and I get to clarify or expand on out discussion from the last session.
I don't know if that's something that would work for you but I wanted to pass along the idea.
Also, I want to give you a big hug and say hang in there.