Hi!

I'd like to write about a relationship I am in or maybe I want to be in.

I've been working with a guy for about two years. It was a very good time for me, he was always very proffesional, very helpful, thoughtful. I've enjoyed our talks during long drives through the country, sharing thoughts, opinions. I guess he liked it too.
Last year I've decided to leave that job, it was too exhausting for me, I needed something less dynamic. When I left we promised each other we would keep in touch. In fact we are, we text, email each other, sometimes talk on the phone. We've met twice since I left. Trouble is, it's almost always me who initiates the contact. I try to rationalize, that he's got a family to take care of, he's still doing that crazy job and he may not have a lot of time. I know I'm not the priority.

I'm not sure about my sexuality but I guess sex is not the point here. I can't imagine us in bed. We never had more physical contact, than a handshake. I wouldnt know how to express my happiness, if we hugged. I just really miss the comfort of having him around.

I am very unsure where I stand and what I should do. I don't want to push too hard, because I've messed up some relationships this way before. I don't want to loose this. I know I can't make a friendship happen, it's supposed to happen by itself.

Looking forward to reading your opinions.