I don't take it personally I just get frustrated at my position in life. I did years of therapy and have taken anti-depressants on and off over a lifetime. Although the therapy and drugs probably allowed me to hang in there I never got to a point where I had meaningful relationships in my life. When I was younger I survived by telling myself that I still had a lot of time and something will happen. Well, it never really did and I still feel a universal disconnect. From my perspective faith and soulmate are just words - bitter interpretations but it is my world. Even this website makes me feel lonely because people talk about relationships and I can't offer any insight. Will I change - the evidence is scarce and it might not matter anymore. Thanks.