I've pretty much stopped getting close to people because i'm afraid of this. I have one best friend, then maybe 5 ish other friends. I'm only turning 19 so i don't have much Life Experience. When i was merely 13 or so, i lost my best friend. I would talk with him for hours every day. We had a major fight and all of our contact stopped like over night. He then became increasingly hostile about me and bullied me. I also grew apart from 2 other childhood friends. I am just now getting over all of this. I was still extremely hurt and tearful up until i was probably 16. Now i'm more ambivalent. I definitely do not do well with losses. So I've been avoiding any real relationships.