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Yismymindblank12
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Default Mar 17, 2015 at 02:11 PM
 
I am not in a relationship, but I definitely relate to yogurtz sitch with all the females I've dated were very sexual more than most younger people at early 20s but even though there are lots of young people like that.

It comes to my deep fears of a committed relationship. I am truly terrified of both ends. At 21 it's prevented me wanting any marriage type of thing if I meet someone I like. The anxiety started from my parents being consistently exposed to an unhealthy relationship. There is no intimacy, my mom thinks there is by taking my dad to dinner or a casino, but deep down my mom is very superficial and selfish. My dad hates her ******** i see his anguish how he regrets marrying her all the time.

Given what having me born and my sister it gave me enough sense to see don't bother. Especially where people want to use and loose not love and appreciate.

Rather my dad loves my mom she and him probably never had sex in probably since 20 years ago. It's weird for me to think, but that's not what I'm getting at the last time they seemed happy together was before I was born.

It's really put a damper on me even having a serious commitment eventually down the road with someone who is cool at first then just can't compromise on anything. If its sex, I'm out. Not suggesting anyone to do the same. I have to be honest with myself and stay far away from getting near that problem for me. This is just me. As of now, I'm not concerned about long term relationships. Rather frightened of them and these stories are interested and disheartening, but further my fear in bothering with anyone.
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