I'm sorry you had to go through that and that its so difficult for you. I also do a good job at blocking my alters, and can imagine how embarrassed I would be if they came out. I can tell you this much though; having your child alter switch out in front of your t shows that you really trust her. Because you have such walls built up between you and your alters, when you're in therapy as your host personality, the alters aren't getting the help THEY need. I know its easy for me to say cause I wasn't the one acting like a child, but try not to feel too embarrassed by the incident. Your t already knows you have DID, and there will be some painful steps in the path towards healing. You likely disassociated in the first place because something traumatic was too much to bare. My advice is stay strong! I know its easier said than done, but you can do it!

Also, there's this really awesome book I'm reading called "I Am We." Its an autobiography about a woman's lifelong battle with DID. I'm currently reading the book and its very enlightening and puts DID in a human perspective. Reading the DSM is great and all, but its refreshing to hear a real life tale.

Anyway, hope you continue to heal and not be embarrassed or ashamed. Feel free to open up to me whenever cause I'm the LAST one to judge anyone.

Take care, Jen :-)