You ask a difficult question.
Possible reasons to live other than guilt:
Live for the challenge of creating meaning in a situation where meaning is apparently nonexistent.
Live in hope that times of joy - perhaps only brief times - will reappear occasionally.
Live in hope that you may eventually observe or do something amazing.
Live for the possibility you might experience an epiphany that will make life a lot more bearable.
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My dog

mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.