It's really hard for me to describe this but I'll try.
I'm feeling really weird. Like my whole life is just a bizarre lie and someone somewhere has been watching me, planning things to throw at me and laughing at me trying to deal with it.

The bodily sensations I'm having are odd- like for days it's felt like there is a thin thread is wrapped around one of my toes. Any time my hairs touch my face I get agitated, because I really don't like the feeling. It feels like there are small bugs walking on me, almost like an itch but when I scratch it or rub it, the feeling just comes up somewhere else on my body.
I feel really disgusting from the inside out, like my organs are rotting. My stomach disorder is probably causing that, but I woke up today and my whole life feels like how my stomach does.
I feel muted, dull colors like brown and red. I want to paint that, actually, which is good because I haven't had the desire to make any art for months, but I still don't really feel up to painting. I think the word "ambivalence" is really describing my life right now.

And I keep seeing faces in everything. Objects, like a chair or an exercise machine, look like someone who is sitting down and looking at me, and even though I do a double or triple-take and confirm that it's just an inanimate object, it still feels like someone watching me.

It's really upsetting to me right now, because I don't have the energy to cope with this while I'm trying to figure out my life. There's no time.