Direction - can I relate to you! I have always been overweight so I have always been every guys best friend. I was married, divorced, lived with a guy, then lived with a woman for 10 years.

It is always the same questions brewing. I know for me, I would overcompensate to have someone like me - spend money, be available, offer sex, etc. etc....

I'm now at a point in my life (age 42) that I am not going to look for anyone. I figure when it happens I will know and I will be ready.

I am very lonely too, but then I think I don't want to get in a relationship just because I'm lonely. I figure this time I'll be friends with a person and then realize I want a relationship because I want the relationship.

Tranquility