My worsening depression since last Saturday lingers. I decided that rather than wait two weeks for another ECT I'm going to see if I can get in this Friday. I can tell the ECT is affecting my memory but I don't have much of a choice. I'm really, really tired of dealing with this depression.

People who don't have depression don't realize how easy they have it. I really struggle most days just to make it through the day: volunteering, going to AA meetings, jogging. I have to talk myself into doing everything instead of just doing it.

Went to the movie "Still Alice" yesterday with a friend. It's about a woman who was an accomplished college professor who had to give up teaching due to early Alzheimer's. I really identified with her because depression makes it impossible for me to practice law now. I don't even know if I can work as a paralegal but I will try if anyone will hire me!