Yeah...I agree with everything you said, Webgoji. It's just that I am desperate, and I struggle with depression all the time. She tells me how amazing I am all the time and she says she'll have to keep saying it until I believe it, but I don't think I'm that great of a person. She has other issues that make things difficult, she has pcos (polycystial ovarian syndrome). She always is telling me how sexy I am, but to me whenever she says that it's like, ok, I'm sexy, but apparently not sexy enough to have sex with ? I don't understand it.

I've seen a therapist for depression and my therapist happened to also be a sex therapist and I've seen her for about 2 years. I recently stopped seeing her because I just felt that it was more of a burden to go to therapy than help. And I know that my girlfriend wouldn't have gone in with me to therapy. She's very independent. Almost to the point where she doesn't want you to touch her or cuddle that much.

I think about all this stuff and then I get really depressed and it affects everything. Then she notices how sad I am, and she asks me what's wrong, I say I'm just depressed, then she asks why, and I can't say why because I don't want to hurt her feelings either. But then it just gets worse. It's quite annoying. Oh well. I'm still better off than I was when I was single I guess. Oh yeah, she's my first and only girlfriend I've ever had. People told me I should get different "tastes" before I settle or whatever, but I just never thought I could find anybody in the first place being the way I am, which is severely depressed all the time. I had tried match.com and going to meetup groups for about a year before I came across my girlfriend. I had only really gone on probably 3 or 4 dates before her. To a lot of people, they would be like what?? You've never done this, you've never done that? But to me its quite an accomplishment.