i'm in an abuse & neglect class, and we watched videos all night tonight. one after another. showed spanking. showed scars. showed a kid who was talking about her mom hurting her. it was so triggering. i'm so sad. i felt hate, and sorrow, and sooo much anxiety. i feel like a scared child tonight. i want to hurt myself really bad. i have to do homework and i can't. i'm so scared. i'm so mad. i'm so sad.

i am not as eloquent about this stuff when i'm in such a state. sorry if i sound stupid

i hurt...

angela