Hi. When I was 8 years old my brother left home and he never come back. For a while I thought that he left because of me, but later I understood that I had nothing to do with him, hi decided to do that way and I never got to know the reasons.
I am 19 years old and I think I have a serious problem because I think that everyone I care abotu in my life, my boyfriend, my friend will live me like he did, without saying a word. That is my biggest fear and sometimes I don't know how to hande it. Sometimes when my boyfriend doesn't call me when he says he would I panic and I'm afraid that it is happening again. I'm so afraid to trust people.
No one knows about this fear I have, I always suffer in silence, no one knows what is happening to me and all I want is to cry it all out and to handle this fear who is stopping me to enjoy the precious time with the people I love.
I'm also afraid that I might need a psychiatrist and I need someone I could talk to to help me with this.