I wonder if you accepted that you like to look at her picture on FB, would you feel better, and maybe even at some point find you don't need to look as often?
I just throw that out there because I think this way of looking at it is helping me. When I finally revealed to my T that I had googled her and looked at her FB page she was very accepting of it. She told me it was natural for me to be curious.
She has also said that I can ask her anything, including personal things about her. This has helped me tremendously and I feel very close to her. After a few years Of talking about it we are now FB friends. This has not been easy, but I think it's been helpful. I still have jealous feelings towards her and her friends and family, but usually once we talk about it I feel much better.
I am justly now learning that accepting how i feel is making things much easier for me. I'm assuming a lot of my crap has to,do with shame, including looking at FB, but my T's acceptance, and my own acceptance seems to be making a big difference.
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