Oh ((Jane)), I can totally understand how triggering that must have been for you. I can even relate to how you reacted. Wow, that is such a big challenge. I am so glad to hear that you chose to speak to him afterwards and stand up for how you felt and how wrong it was of him to make fun of those who depend or need psychotherapy. I can even understand that while you did that, you are completely exhausted from it. That is exactly what happens to me too.

In a way Jane, that is the what I have faced from professionals, especially lawyers for going on 8 years now. I have been through way too much, and disrespected in so many ways now that I find myself very overwhelmed. What I want to do with all my heart is sit with these lawyers and tell them exactly how bad it has been for me. With all my heart I want them to know that when a person is telling the truth, really did witness and suffer like I did, it is inhumane to keep that person in suspension for so many years as has been the case with me.

I understand that "yes" some people lie and abuse situations for personal gain, making them wait for years on purpose can wear them down too. However, when someone is actually telling the truth, making them wait on purpose to wear them down is inhumane and can do a great deal of damage to their brain, I know this so well because I have lived it. I have lived through the negative comments that belittle my challenge too.
My own new lawyer says, "Oh, don't be angry, think happy thoughts", she is only telling me how very much she has no clue about how I genuinely struggle.

I know what it's like to look at names and feel so lost, that is what I had to do before I finally found the T I have that has helped me so much. I have sure had my fair share of bad T's, clueless T's so I definitely understand how you feel. I really had to push myself to meet with the list, be disappointed until I came across the T that was the right match.
Does the T you have now have the ability to look at the list and see what names might be the best match for you? Can he help you with that at all Jane? That is what I would want to work on with the time I had left with him.

I am very impressed with how you stood up for yourself, I know that took a lot of courage, the kind that so many don't understand too. Allow yourself to appreciate that and also get some rest, that really is mentally and physically exhausting. It definitely "is" a lot of work to move forward, yes, I definitely hear you on that one. You did well.

Thank you for sharing that, it is inspiring Jane.

(((Supportive Respectful Hugs)))
OE