Hi, new to this forum, i'm struggling at the moment. Ive recently been to see a counsellor as a friend noticed i was "depressed" and recommended it. I attended the initial session and felt so stupid, then cancelled the rest of the sessions. My main problems at the minute are feeling low, anger and excess alcohol. As a child i was emotionally/physically abused by a person close to me. As I've grown older I have obviously grown to hate this person. I don't know if this is the cause? I have very low self esteem and i feel pretty low a lot of the time. What should i do? What is this??