I met with T today. She asked if I wanted to talk about what I wrote. My first response was "no!!". And that was it.

She knows have a hard time expressing myself verbally, so she suggested we try collaging - finding words & pictures to describe my feelings of a particular subject. I even struggled with that. All I wanted to do was curl up in a ball and not be seen.

I regret now not talking about it. I didn't need to discuss the details, I just needed to hear from her that it was ok to tell and she's not leaving.

When is it going to get easier?