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Old Mar 18, 2015, 07:39 PM
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i moved out of my group home, it was good at first. Hallucinations are my only issue though. I keep myself under control even through the attacks. I use multiple ways of battling them to be quiet. I isolate the locations on or in my body they react to me imposing mentally on, and then use mental imagination/focus commands and external objects like canvas, soaps on walls and wax, copper winds, magnets, i find tinfoil temporary fixes that make it worse. Anyway i got a room to rent, within a few weeks, hallucinations if you call them that became very real, and very freakin scary. i got kicked out. luckily my family let me live home for a while, but then diabetes set in, and the pain was excruciating in my arm. I ended up back in the hospital psych ward, though it was good because i wouldnt have gotten a "lidocaine patch" for the pain as the hospital emergency room did nothing, just waited for me to freak out to let them suck the government tit for money. i met a patient who suggested the patch. Hospitals will poison you slowly, hallucinations are a challenge to your will to live and stay sane through them. you can do it, i did. be safe, dont harm anyone or yourself, be scientific, make it boring for the hallucinations. and diminsish the sound in your head by trying safely different blocks and energy pushing. right now i randomly hear very quiet random calls to me, im on clozapine which cancels the crazy loud attacks, and the soaps/waxes other stuff lowers the resonances of the voices.
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