I am dealing with a similar situation. I was hospitalized about 8 months ago. I have been diagnosed for several years and I am just truly coming to terms with my diagnosis. Some things that I remind myself of is that this is not the end of the line. Many people with bipolar disorder go on to live very productive lives. You just have to get your meds and therapy routine down pat. This is not the end of the line. You may still be able to go back to doing the work you used to do. Or, you may find new work to do. Right now though, you may just need some rest and time to get your meds and therapy routine straight. I was able to finish school after I was released from the hospital and get a Master's degree. It's not the end of the line. It's just a pause in the road trip - a rest stop.