Dear T,
I'm scared as ****. I don't know how to do this the right way. I can't put my thoughts into words. I don't think it sounds right. It's not normal. I mean really not normal. Maybe I'm afraid I should be put away somewhere? That I'm much more of a lunatic than anyone knows, even myself?
It would be much easier to quit. I'd think I'd like to quit. Quitting is something I am good at.