Thank you, everyone. I took the seroquel last night and the Effexor this morning. The seroquel knocked me out. Which im not complaining about; that was probably the best, most uninterrupted sleep I have had in a long time. Sleep has been hard to come by in the past two months and having weeks of only sleeping 2-3 hours per night along with everything else made me feel like I was losing my mind. Maybe that's part of the reason why I ended up hospitalized.

I feel like I spent most of my afternoon googling and reading different sources of information about bipolar. Some of what I found was really helpful and then I saw the darker side. I was surprised and disappointed at a lot of sites that came up that had very, VERY negative things being said about people with bipolar. It made me feel pretty down about it and how people could be so hurtful.

I will look into the books this weekend, thank you all again!