First off I am Bipolar and I used to say that I didn't believe in love, I guess to try to just not feel. I'm not very good at feeling! I try, but sometimes my emotions get jumbled and I get lost! Then my anxiety takes over and I break down. With all that being said thats why I guess I tried to just not feel the strong emotions. But now, as hard as I have tried to ignore it, I have fallen for this guy. It has been three years that I have liked him and I can't get over it, I have tried! Everyone keeps telling me that I should tell him, but Im so scared! The thing is I don't know what scares me more that fact that he doesn't like me or the fact that if he does I don't think that I deserve to be loved!
I think that in the end I should tell him.
Im just so scared and I honestly don't think that I deserve to be loved.