A list of stuff that is happening:
I cant stand being around people. why do people talk all the time it hurts my head mixed with the other comments that i hear its just a cacophony.
the urge to hurt myself is strong. the command to do so very strong
I cancelled my appointments with my care team
Things taking on a different light. I understand crows, I know something is going to happen I feel like I have to protect my family. I didn't manage to do the soap ritual that they asked me to now something bad will happen. Soap runs out 9th April . I could buy more soap but I think I am done then. If it saves them. Nothing here is going right but maybe that is so i can just not work here any more.
Not getting more than three hours sleep.
I had so many plans to plant garden build chicken coop, paint living room, build sofa. I only got the kitchen painted. Cannot think linear any more.
I am hoping somebody knows what this is like. I cant explain it to anyone, even worried that this is being watched. thinking i should delete my facebook.