To me it sounds like its related to trauma? Like you can't really consent to sex if you're strung out and it doesn't sound like you consented to him doing it 3x a day. You even said you weren't turned on.
I would discuss your feelings about it with Tx. Maybe processing the trauma will be the first steps towards getting comfortable in your skin so you can be okay with sex?
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