KinkyGuy,

I'll be 65 in May and my untreatable bipolar continues to take its toll on me. I'm still trying though even my pdoc reluctantly admits that we're running out of options. Like you, I came out of a long period of poor sleep, which led to hallucinations and strong suicidal urges. Klonopin, the drug I love to hate, was once again prescribed and a week of solid sleep pulled me back from the edge. I look good, like a car that looks like it came off the showroom floor...but the engine and transmission are trashed, lol. I really don't have any insights, except to keep trying. That might sound trite and perhaps shallow. It's true, though. But if you want to remind yourself of the strength of the human spirit, watch two great Steve McQueen films; 'The Great Escape' and 'Papillion'.