I have therapy later today. Sort of dreading it, and at the same time want to do it because therapist is getting at some really hard s*** that needs to get worked on. It's exhausting, though.

I spent time talking to a friend yesterday about my life and she expressed both support for me and anger over my situation. She seems to want it to change at least as badly as I do, but also sees the bind I am in and how hard it is to change where I'm at.

Mixed feelings from that. Appreciate the support. Once again, reminded that I am trapped.