What kind of stupid person am I? I am supposed to be making an appointment for wed to have a checkup on my crap gerd/asthma, and am trying to talk myself into speaking with him about my anxiety... To the point... what kind of dummy am I to be nervous about calling to make an appointment??? I mean i have my reasons for being afraid to do many things "normal" people can do, but call in the office? Come on, I SUCK! Since ive been seeing a doc my hubby makes my appt with his, but we can't go together this time bc his work schedule and being home to get our kids off the bus I have to call and reschedule. WTF is my problem. I'm so angry at myself for not handeling things, and yet so disconnected that I'm tired of caring. Trying isn't getting me anywhere, its not giving me the strength and courage I need, it isn't enough!!!!!!!!!

Sorry if I offended anyone..