I faced the fear because the fear of what might happen if I didn't go was greater. It's not a fun experience by any means but it is useful if you want to take good care of yourself and need a med change, evaluation or whatever. Sometimes we just have to do these things as people with bipolar to best care for ourselves. If our mood states are getting too extreme, too out of control, then it's time to take drastic measures. I just got out of the hospital a couple days ago and I'm glad I went. I'm feeling more in control of myself than I was before as I got a significant med adjustment. If you want to get the proper help for yourself, you might want to do as your therapist recommends. The best thing to do is not always fun or enjoyable.