I would love to be able to talk with someone about living with someone with this. I DID just leave my partner last month however the effects control me everyday.

It was not until about mid Feb that I was able to take a step back from our lives and see what was really going on. I began to research and came across this site. Through out our relationship lightbulbs were constantly being turned on however it wasn't until Feb when they all went on together and I saw the whole picture. I feelings were almost crippling as even though I was granted relief and was able to not feel guilty anymore for wanting to either do things or for talking to people, at the same time, by 4pm some days I was bouncing off every wall with ultimate panic as I didn't know how to get out. I couldn't find any help as if I was away from the house for any length of time it raised suspisions. I could not call anybody...

Thank goodness for the internet, I located a house to rent and literally did some last minute packing in order to get many of my belongings out. I did tell him I was leaving as to not raise anymore suspsion however the alarm bells were already going off in his mind. It didn't "make sence" to him why I was moving things before I actually moved but it was my security that I was GOING to get out and if I had to leave in a hurry, I would already have some belongings.
I did end up leaving sooner than planned which I am scared will back fire on me as "I was being secretive"

I felt as though I was in a vicious circle because I felt I had to do things behind his back as I would be questioned if I told him and in doing so it just made him think more that I was being devious. In his eyes, I have ultimately sinned. I was able to "pull a fast one on him" by leaving him and he was not one step ahead of the game on this one.

I too have children and I am terrified of what this will do to them as I have seen and experience how much of a basket case I have become. I do not want this to be passed on to them. I do not want him to teach them that there is a hidden adgenda in everything that happens, ultimately that everyone and everything is out to get them.

I have managed to talk to a pshycologist once since I left and he has agreed that there is definately something wrong however I have not spent enough time talking to him to get through all that I have been through to build up something concrete. I go back on Thrusday for a double session in hopes of making up for lost time in which I have not had a chance to talk to anyone.

"My wife is incredibly smart and she knows what to say to others in order to be 'enabled' "
I know exactly what you mean by this. I feel so alone and scared as to everyone else "he is so nice" and able to justify almost anything. As I did leave and now we are going through court, I am scared he is going to deny anything that might raise suspision either that or because he is quite able to justify his suspisions quite well, that nobody will see it.

anyone who can relate or advise, PLEASE feel free to message me.