Its been about two /three weeks since i cut last....my security place has always been the bathroom...which is weird...but for some reason its my security blanket....well for three weeks now....i have "replaced" cutting with giving myself a good face wash...and brush my teeth ( i always do that lol ) and good flossing and mouthwash....now i know you probably are thinking...well i do that everyday...so do i ...but now i do it three times a day (except the facewashing unless i need it because i dont want my skin to dry out) normally i brush once a day and dont floss ( i know but you guys should know when you are depressed things dont come as easy) so i have also started crocheting an afgahn...it will be cream colored with this beautiful dark turqouis N in the middle....because my future last name will start with an N...lol so i am keeping myself busy....and instead of going in the bathroom a million times a day i go in three times...and give myself a miny spa moment...along with some nice smelly lotion (cocabutter mostly ) and a good shave....iive been looking into some self help books....ts pretty nice actually...and i havent cut...so i am pretty proud of myself .....you proud of me? lol...i guess i need some people to jump up and down for me in exitment...you guys know how hard it is....go figure...it stopped when i stopped speaking to my parents.....how ironic....lets hope i keep up the good work..i never have gone this long ...ive been getting compliments too. at work too...yey for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S Guess what!!! I also am sleeping every night...granted i take tyelonl pm...but the greatest kicker of them all is im not getting nightmares....or at least i dont remember them and thats sure good enough for me yey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!