My social awkwardness comes from being very self conscious about my appearance. I am pudgy(to put it the mildest way I can). I don't think I am horribly ugly, but I am ashamed of my weight. As a teen, I was very thin and as I made it to my 30's, I am far from thin. I was losing weight for a bit, but then one of my patients attacked me and I got hurt. I am seeking different type of work in my field and it isn't easy to find. I have been getting more and more depressed because I feel like when I go to interviews I keep getting rejected. By being at home and depressed, I have gained at least 20lbs which makes me more depressed. I am glad that the weather is finally getting warmer here in NY because I have seasonal affective disorder and the winters here are long, dreary and cold. I plan to move at some point to a warmer state, but I need to find a job here first so I can save up enough to move and pay off all the debts I have accrued by being out of work. By not being able to find work, I feel very stuck. Sorry, I just looked back at what I wrote and I am rambling like a lunatic. I guess it has been very lonely here too. The only person I know here is my husband and he works overnights and sleeps during the day. So I have a lot of time to think unfortunately. Amongst all of that rambling butterflypower I was meaning to say feel free to message me. I promise I won't ramble on like a just did.[emoji5]️

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