It's just that sometimes I feel like I'm weird talking to people. I think it's just me always thinking I'm annoying people, but I'm probably not. Yes, people can annoy me, but it's really hard to. My boyfriend's sister is always texting me. I kind of get annoyed, so I ignore her. I feel bad about it, but sometimes she can be very needy. I think I'll eventually get over my awkwardness. It's hard to not think about what people say. Maybe once my medicine really starts kicking in, I'll care less. I avoid my family. I want to talk to them, but right now I don't want to hear them criticize me. I know I had to withdraw from college twice because of hospitalizations twice. Yes, I wasted $10,000 because of it. They like to bring it up all the time. My aunt will put me down. She would say "You're never going to finish college blahblahblah.." I decided to wait a month to talk to them again because I care about them. I really don't want them saying anything to me because they make me more depressed about my life.