I hate that my moods are beyond my control. I hate that when I have insomnia, I can exercise, take 2 different psychotics, a mood stabilizer and a sleeping pill and I still can't sleep.

I hate that people without bipolar don't understand that I look normal and act reasonably normal and inside I am flying. That it takes every bit of self-control I have not to buy out a store, sleep with anyone and drink a quart of alcohol or go to a party and snort a gram of coke.

I hate all of it.