Hi bipolar2007. Sorry to hear you may be having suicidal thoughts. I think all the things you mentioned can be those kinds of thoughts.

If you are having them and feel tempted to act, call a telephone hotline. see here
Psych Central - Search results for Hotlines

If you have thoughts and are worried, having a safety plan is an important preventitive measure. It can include having hotline numbers. Here is a link to safety plan:
Suicide Safety Plans | Channel N

If you have a therapist or psychiatrist, contact them immediately especially if your medication has been adjusted or changed because some meds react negatively with some people and may have to be modified.

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