Yes, been living the "dream" for almost 2 weeks now. My spouse and I are now seeing therapists separately as well as couples counseling. I've had 2 visits, he's had 1 and together we've had 1 and she won't see us back until we've had a few more visits. I HATE not having control over this situation. He is not sure yet if he's going to stay or go. He says he has to be happy as well as love and right now, he's not happy. His therapist told him that 1st visit that it sounded like I have BPD. He didn't tell me that until today. I looked it up on here, did the test and scored 43. Well, I thought, that explains alot!! All these years I've been diagnosed with "situational" depression. BPD makes MORE sense. Wish I could've known this before it was too late. I'm so scared it's too late. I love him. Seventeen years is a lot to throw away. Especially, when we might just be on the verge of figuring out what's wrong with me!!!!!