I have been trying to find myself for at least 25 years. Been through 2 abusive relationships and now married where in the beginning my husband was very jealous, and now the last 10 years things have gotten better abit, I find it hard to think for myself, I had a best friend who was my backbone and she passed away 2 months ago, I think I know what to do to find me, its just fear thats stopping me because I dont put myself first, but I remeber tge advice of deceased friend and I keep moving forward, and thats what you need to do, dig deep and do some soul searching and it will come.. day by day things get a little better