After years of feeling sad, I finally decided to see a therapist last September, and it has been going well. The psychiatrist I also see has told me that I have chronic depression and I just feel very...angry, I guess. What I hate the most is that I have no motivation to do the things I used to love. My dreams have been destroyed because of my depression. I dreamt of being a professional musician in a philharmonic. I started playing the piano at 5 years old and I was actually decent and I loved it so much and I stopped when I was 13, which was when my depression began. Now I'm in my early 20s and it makes me so sad that my dream is gone...And then I get mad because I feel so lazy.

I'm sorry if this post is dumb. I just feel very lonely tonight and I needed to let out some steam.