Thank you for your responses. I didn't go. I chickened out. I have a tendancy to avoid situations that I perceive are too hard. Can you tell I've been in therapy way too long? I'm quoting my therapist.

My friend has been very understanding. She was even questioning whether to call me as soon as she had the baby because she didn't want to upset me. I know that I have to grieve and move on...It's one of those things I've been putting off and it's really messing with my head. The more I deny and the more I put off... the more manic I become.

I don't know if I answered anyone's question or not. Thank you again for being so supportive.

Ang