Things may seem hopeless right now but just try your hardest not to lose it, hope is a very powerful emotion that can trump so much, just try to let your hope grow inside yourself while letting out all of your anger, frustration and sorrow. It does always help to rant every once in a while to, let it out so and the emotional weight should be lifted long enough for you to gain a grip on the world and fight for longer. i wish you the best of luck if you ever need to talk just PM me and ill do my best to help you, hope things get better for you soon.