Hi oneironaut

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with anxiety depression and paranoia.

This is very difficult.

It's not good that you were given the run around in psychiatrists offices for so long.

But I am really glad that you are with a good one now.

A change in medication or altering / taking away a medication can have side effects.

I can understand why you would say that you have lost faith in psychiatry.

It's good that you have tried different approaches to managing this.

I am unsure as to whether the following may be a result from having changed meds or if this is something that you may have been predispositioned for regardless of meds:

"Anxiety fills me, depression, paranoia, etc-etc. "

Anxiety techniques work as do depression ones.

Meds alone can't really fix these things, as you have learnt.

It's about harnising in on self help strategies to support ourselves when this happens.

I thought I'd point out these posts to you.

Please see if they may help:

6 Tips to Help You Through a Depressive Episode | World of Psychology

Strategies for Overcoming Depression | Psych Central

Top 10 Lesser-Known Self-Help Strategies for Anxiety | Psych Central