My old Pdoc, a few weeks before my last visit with her (I have a new Pdoc for many good reasons!) said I should consider ECT. Now don't get me wrong...I totally understand ECT is helpful for many people and I love that for them. But, for me, it felt like she was giving up on me! I had hated lithium for months and it was doing no noticeable good for me anyhow but she wouldn't let me stop taking it.

I go to my new Pdoc and tell him all my concerns and he says I can def. stop taking it and started me on Trileptal. I have done a lot better since then. Now Im not saying Im perfect or fixed but Im doing better than before.

For me, when she said that, it felt as if she was giving up on me. I wouldn't choose to do ECT unless I was at the end. Even at that point, I had hope things would get better. I was taking my meds and seeing my T and never missed my weekly appointment with her. So it hurt my feelings that she made it sound as if I had no other hope.

Im thankful and encouraged I decided to see a new Pdoc (my old one made poor decisions, in my opinion.) Im glad he listened and took notice of my hope to feel better. Im glad Im on a new med that is helping (again, Im still down a bit and irritable) and I am happy I am not long taking the poison-lithium!

Im thankful. And Im encouraged. And Im working to be better.