Well so much for having 50 days of sobriety by the time I have my intake appt with ex t (hopefully soon to be current t).... birthdays will do that oh well, not gonna worry about it. 39 more days... last night felt like agony, like waiting would be impossible. It felt so far away... then I thought of all your posts and advice about doing nice things for myself and such so I made a chart with 40 days and a list of self-care type nice things to do. So I'll work my way through the list and do one per day. Yesterday I went for a walk in the lovely spring air and collected flowers...today I am going to send out cards to friends... just need to keep myself busy and before I know it, the day of the appt will be here!

I also have a plan to have a letter written to him on the day of my appt just in case he won't take me as a client so that I can give it to him in person. That way I'll feel some closure if it comes to that. I hope it doesn't though!