I'm having a hard time with getting old. I'm 54 and I see my 88 year old father with walking problems and other age related health issues, and my mom with dementia who is in a nursing home (really nice one). I do help them out. I spend more time with my father who lives at home alone and doesn't drive anymore so I have to take him around. I'm not working right now.

I can't seem to find things that I can look forward to except getting old and ill and potentially ending up with dementia. That scares me.

I don't have kids, but do have a husband and dogs. I suppose many people go through this. I don't find that getting over 50 is great as some people claim. It doesn't get better.