Hang in there Jane. This is really tough stuff to deal with, for anyone. Sometimes emotions get the better of us, and we don't react the way we wish we would (!). It's OK. Your feelings... all OK. You're allowed to feel what you feel...

And, nobody's going to get sick of you posting here. It's the whole reason this place exists . Heck, I've had really awful days, totally alone and cut off from the world, just *wishing* someone would post something here for me to reply to (shhhh I didn't just admit that!)

I'm sorry that he's still going, and that he's now going to miss 2 out of 5 of your remaining appointments! That would really upset me, a lot. I don't often yell, but that might just push me over the edge, personally.

So it sounds like you didn't get a chance to reschedule those two appointments? Do you want to? It seems like they might be helpful for you... can you give him a call to see about scheduling them now (my worry would be that as he starts winding down with people, his schedule might fill up with others who need to squish in more appointments... I wouldn't want you to miss the chance to have all the support you want and need!)

What do you think?