I don't know. I think only a psychiatrist can tell you.

Everyone behaves differently with this disease.
I would never gamble, for example.But I would spend a ton of money on myself and loved ones.
I would not cheat, although I might have sex with a partner many, many times. Or masturbate many times.
When I am depressed, I want to die. I can't get out of bed and can't go anywhere. I don't shower or eat.