Jane, i second guilloche on asking T about rescheduling those two appointments - and doing it quickly as other clients will probably be wanting to do the same. This is a difficult enough process as it is without missing out on two sessions. Don't give yourself time to think about it, or worry about it, or second guess your reasons or how your T might react to it - just email him today, now, and ask to reschedule so you get your full five sessions.

Please be gentle with yourself. It's okay to be angry, to be scared, to be silent, to be all over the place with this. It's a big upheaval, and a big loss, and it's going to bring up all kinds of thoughts and feelings and reactions. Sounds like your T is right there with you, and we're here for you, too.

Sending you hugs and positive vibes.